I hope none of my posts offended you, I'm a cynical hard ass when it comes to chicas, having been burned often in my early days of mongering, but I've developed a thick skin as the years and the ho's have come and gone.
I've been relatively smart with Costa Rica chicas in my later years from all my trial and error, MY downfalls are with USA "sugarbabies" I develop and end up caring too much for and getting emotionally involved with. I "feel your pain" and am sure all of us have made mistakes like this, and worse, especially in the beginning of our careers.
My intention is never to insult a fellow member but try to offer advice, often in a humorous way from my years at the sport. I admire your honesty and bravery, coming out and confessing what happened, if your story helped only one other monger avoid a similar trap, it was worth it.
Don't let some of the harsh comments and admonishments from some of my fellow cynics deter you from future posts, I suspect if you told any of us this story face to face at a bar down here, any one of us would empathize with your situation and try to console you as best we could, probably most of us would tell you a tale of how we too had been burned and had been foolish.
I don't think anyone here meant you any ill will, we ALL can relate.
For many of us, myself included, mongering is more than just tits n ass n puss, DFK, BBBJ, 69 and GFE for one hour for financial remuneration, and any one of us will admit laughing, talking, joking, relating and spending time with a cute young thing brings back memories of when we were young and spending time with our hot girlfriends so many many years ago...
It's easy to fall into this trap, this time machine and temporary dip into this fountain of youth that we call mongering...
Perhaps we should form an 'MA' group like AA or NA, (mongers anonymous). We can bear our souls in meetings and when any one of us feels the urge to get emotionally involved with a ho, we can call our "sponsor" to rush over and talk us out of it...
We can make up t shirts, 1 year, 5 years, etc. instead of alcohol free, drug free, we can phrase it "giving a damn free'' and proudly strut SL, HDR and other areas of temptation...
Soldier on, fellow member, it can happen to any one of us, often, oddly, even to the most experienced among us who should DEFINITELY know better, as I described earlier in one of my responses here in this thread, I have seen it with my own eyes. I for one salute you, you learned from your mistake, and THAT is what is truly important !!!