Phoenix Rising wrote:
I have strongly advised BD not to do this. And, that he needs to pay his dues, learn the ropes, learn the culture, learn the language, relearn how to manage a woman. Not a naive, uneducated, poor Ch*ld of 19 years with two Ch*ldren of her own, but a real, mature woman. Any endeavor to have a relationship is a great crapshoot at best, but he is hellbent on this disasterous project, which has practically zero chance of succeding. I know BD a little, and he is a really good guy. This all seems a little selfish but actually it isn't at all. He is genuinely a guy who lives by the golden rule, and is motivated in no small part, i really believe, by (in what he thinks is) the gal's best interests. He is also unfortunately, in a hurry to solve his "loneliness" problem and is unfortunately jumping the gun. It takes YEARS of experience in this thing of ours to have an iota of a chance of succes in a project such as this. Guys like LaD, Orange, and I include myself here, ARE successful in our own unique ways. We are not talking out our asses here or as someone put it, "losers trying to tell another loser how to live his life." He needs to pay better attention, but he is too blinded by his own desires to think clearly and make the only rational choice and NOT go down this path.
I think part of the issue here, is that BD really doesn't care if he is successful. That would be a bonus but it's not the point. He just is bored and wants to do something different than Dr Pepper mongering. Unfortunately though this is a logical inconsistency with genuinely wanting to help the girl out. And in the end he is likely going to "leave bodies" (as someone said in another thread), along his personal path of growth and enlightenment. He will probably be very upset with himself down the road when he realizes this, because he really is a genuinely good guy.
Very thought provoking for me, and I greatly appreciate such a candid assessment. Thank you for speaking your mind.
I do not believe the 'losers' statement was aimed at the guys who genuinely have experience and are advising (albeit in a non-casually, acerbic, and sometimes downright-rude means). At least, I do not feel that way about them.
As to 'My Great Plan' ... I am 'hurrying' it. I know that. I am 'settling' for this one. But please try to understand, this is more akin to a business deal than a love story. I 'need' to fill a 'vacancy' ... yes this sounds terrible and pathetic. But I am not 'using' this girl. I will be everything she needs in her life (to the best of my abilities). I will give her every opportunity I possibly can to grow, expand, and become self-sufficient. I will open every door I can, and will provide a comfortable and loving environment as possible.
I love mongering, but it is a sideshow for me. I'm on a 'mission', not to find Mrs. Right, but to find someone who's needs I can fill, and who can help me to fill mine. Not sex, or companionship. I 'must' get a female into my life and show stability, or I could be in danger of losing my daughter. I won't let that happen. I will sell my phucking soul to protect her. And if that means taking this hastily committed road, throwing caution to the wind and taking on insane responsibilities, then "Cry Havoc!", because it's gunna get done.
Again, I am being as self-centered as she is in this endeavor. She wants a baby-daddy, and a 'man' in her life. I need the stability of a home life. So our basic goals are the same. There won't be any hatred, or violence or stuff like that. Really, the worst will be she isn't happy. We will do whatever is necessary to solve that, even if it means making a comfortable place back in CR for her.
Any pain is ON MY HEAD. But I will truly do what I can to smooth the road for all involved. And keep in mind that I have taken pains to find a woman that is not after money. True, people change, and our society is known to do so. But she is a good person, and we will walk together and learn.
No, I am not falling back on the old "But mine is different!". All women are the same. I cannot escape that fact, so it's best to play into it. She is not a gold digger. I know this. But I also know that I am in for a financial storm. I honestly believe I can balance everything out. And I *WILL* chronicle what happens, so future guys can decide if I have made a terrible mistake.
As you have stated, it's full steam ahead. Let's see what the sea has in store for me.